fix me..

Sat, 09 Dec 2006 07:06:56 GMT

today, someone told me he loves me.

not like but..... love.

that kinda scary. it freaks me out.

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 20:09:11 GMT

sigh..... i am so fucking sleepy......!

3 more hours......breatheeeeeee..

its my weekend off, and i dont even knw wat the fuck i want to do on the weekends!
my frens are bz, and i dont feel like dating just yet, and i soooooo dont know wat to do!
siak betul.....hai..

ZZZZZZZzzzzzz... . . . . . .. . . . . . . .

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 21:05:35 GMT

i so wana smack my patient! Can walk to toilet but always press call-bell to ask me adjust pillow. i hate nite shifts with these kinda ppl. like WHAT THE FUCK!!

there's so many things that i wana say, but well, as for now, il keep it to myself.

FUCK SIAK, he press bell again. chao chicken!

*as for now, i hope dec 15 would come faster.... cos u noe why? HAH, i wont tell you.

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 04:04:52 GMT

i had a rooooliin good time in KL! From eatin dunkin donuts, to partyin, to shopping, do havin osim i-squeeze, to scurrying ard rushing off, to everythin..... the bad ones, no need to say lar ok! But the trip was awesome!

oh and i met up with them chicks last nite for dinner at LauPaSat. How i realy missed their company!

sigh..... seriously i dont know what to feel. somehow i felt like i got stronger, but, somehow i feel like i shd give it another chance. what do i do....

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 03:47:44 GMT

MUSE is coming to singpore, and i am SO GOING TO GO! No way i will miss it man. I already told a fren to get me the tickets!

Im really really really sorry Taufiq. I guessed we have tried. Like i say, il be ready when you're ready. I'll always treasure you as someone special.
;(

i so wana hug justin and hawa if i can, cos i KNOW they were so concern for me. once again guys, i was REALLY sorry! *HUGS!

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 20:06:57 GMT

seriously! i hate work politics! screw it sak!! nak politic jgn nak drag me in lor can or not. cos i nt interested in smelling your panties ok! wtf?

im feelin so so so lethargic. sleepy. baru 3rd nite... one more nite to go and im off to kl! they just told me tt we have to stay bek after out nite duty on fri cos there'll be an audit. CRAP! den my coach to KL how sak. siao or wat.. :(

k la, watever it is, il find my way out. chao!

ps: this is my longest 4 nites ever sak. ngn si cik-som nie.

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 14:48:44 GMT

jus now a stupid lady driver driving a black sports car pointed her middle finger at me cos i was sort of blocking her way at the pump station. and how did i react? SHOW HER MY MIDDLE FINGER back of course! siao, jus cos u drive an expensive car u can be so rude to me, canot signal nicely or wait for 3 secs. idiot siak. if road users tink they can bully me, they're wrong. so they can jolly well go fuck a dog.

SO WE'VE bought out to and fro tix to KL! SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excitingggg... i cant wait to get on board on the coach with that noisy-hawa! hehehhehee... and den, shopppppin!

its been 2 days, since i was feelin down cos of what happened at work. apparently, somebody told me about somebody bitching abt me.. saying like "this faezah, always dont wana do her work properly." walau, its not that i dont want to do lor, its that sometimes there's so many tings to do tt u forgot about it. esp discharged pts, i always forget to do the DAAF. hai.... im so new, vulnerable to mistakes. y cant ppl be like encouraging? manbe thats life. whatever la, but i reali wana improve lor. dun need to bitch lor. cos its not intentional lor. that day got pt die lor. tts y i so lost lor. so stop bitching saying i dont wana do my documentations properly lor. sian.

whatever it is..............KL NEXT WEEK!

PARTIALLY LOCKED

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 15:31:47 GMT

As uaual, PARTIALLY locked.

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 06:18:43 GMT

we ate Arnold's delicious fried chicken at the top floor of a multi-storey carpark at kallang while waiting for fireworks to start. Sucha a cool idea kan? I had sooooo muchhaa fun..

lawa kan lawa kan firewerkzzzzz...!

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 15:23:05 GMT

the "im a nurse, and i have got no life" slogan has been running in my head. i i wished i had a better job. den to be in a so-called noble profession where no one really appreciates what we do for them.

im so not in the mood to work today, even my ward clerk was like "faezah, y u so quiet today, say somthing ah!!" im so irritable tdy.
i so cannot stand it, so noisy today. esp at the sounds of the very soft call-bells is like noise-pollution to me. so tired of answering 10000 call-bells from just one patient. so tired. so tired. i was saying to GL, walau, if we charge patient for each time they press the call-bell, this pt sure bankrupt. Sigh, i nearly blow my top at him when he was being stubborn! But i see him also pitiful. Duno la, evrytime i think of him, i kesian him, den i feel guilty. but i cant help feeling irritated. grrrrrrrrrrh..

may tomoro be a better day. yea as if.

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 16:54:54 GMT

il make this a quick one, my batt's runnin flat.

my baby got me a Guess wristlet for our 1 and a half yr anniversary! i got him a guitar!

my fav pt has been discharged, the one whose family will buy me breakfast and ice jelly! and kinda sian sister shared my story during row-call. she can verify with me first mah b4 sharing.. den i wont mind la. nt tt i really mind la, im kinda thick skin nwadays. anyway, nt my fault, so scared what.

hah. bye.

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 11:07:16 GMT

finally after 3 morning shifts in a row, il b 9-5 tmr, need to go for sum course. pretty much worn out, but today, i had my first compliment from a pt in the feedback form. yayness. sort of at least makes me feel satisfied for all the work. i am not ashamed to admit, i try very hard to please my patients, to get compliments, and to faster2 get increments. what do we work for right? obviously its money. even tho sumtimes i can be very pretentious, i do try my very fucking best to stay patient.

havent been spending much time with the bf. only will call him to say, 'b im gona slp, gd nite'. haha. seram ah nanti dia jadi boring ngn aku. haha.

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 04:08:03 GMT

met up with them yesterday... was so freaking tired i spent 9bucks frm nuh to orchard, and 16bucks from orchard to jurong. And we wait for 1 hr 20 mins for a cab! WTF! cant believe we have all grown up, from junior becum senior, and frm senior becum senior citizen. Dunno why 2nd time eating at Rice Table wasnt as nice as 1st time? Mebe i get sick of things easily.. Back to the topic, i mean, we have like all grown up. hahha. tk abis2. all we talked abt was our experiences at work. heh..

so freaking tired now. working on weekends.................... uwekkkkkkkkkk..

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 13:02:42 GMT

so so so freaking tired. so tired that sometimes ul feel like smacking sumone in the head every time the person calls for u. hehe....

anyway, im kinda worried cs nurul told me she read my blog at nurses counter. heh. if my url is typed there, den im kinda uncomfortable with it, cos i wana rant out everything, but at the same time i do not wana get into trouble. so how? im comtemplating of locking my journal, which means, only friends who're added in my list could read my posts. and only ppl who uses LJ cld be in the list. but most frens are not LJ users sey. so how? sorry ar guys. heh...

work's been kind so far. heh. tts all.

workkk

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 11:11:41 GMT

im itching to get a car. in fact, im SUPER ITCHY to get a car. Mcm tk penat sgt sey gi balek keje with a transport, like just now. even tho i like spent 10hrs at work. Took 4 cases tdy, sister said, she wana us try take 8 by nxt week. im like trying my best sia, hope im up to their standard. Had to write an e-hor jz nw, sway, on my 1st day take case. But i learnt a lesson frm that, that is, nv to take things for granted, always to check my patients frm head to toe upon taking over. its wierd how ****** was nt as irritating as she was on my student days. in fact, she guided me and i felt quite easy. hahahaha. im eating up my words siak. Im reali feeling smangat sey, but duno if it'll last only for this week. hah.

plssssssss let me buy a car daddy!! I wont mind a Kia picanto sey. My mum is supportive. my dad....... die2 dun wan me get a kia. he wans me buy a toyota or swift. i went to see swift ydy and my jaw dropped. toooooo over my budget. hurhur.. kiaaaaaa kiaaaaaa. with coe price peaking up, tts what i can afford sey. urrrrrrrrrrrggghhh

tired

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 14:18:14 GMT

tired

Sun, 16 Jul 2006 22:50:33 GMT

sak ar. jadedglazed was faster den me, everything i wanted to post abt the weekends was at her's already. So korang gi bace kat blog dia je ar eh. Sweet lar dorang, i tink no other guys treat her any nicer den farhan did.Cey, mcm aku pena nampak dia nye laki lain lak eh. Best la, i wana have the car out again! (tho finding a lot to park over the weekends was a total bitch!)
Byeeee.. off to work. I have a life u know. hahah.

ps: zah, later i tell fiq abt the masage ah eh. pantat kau!

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 11:09:05 GMT

the car is mine for use this friday, saturday sunday! wooohaa!

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 13:53:44 GMT

i was surfin frenster wen i saw my fren's sis got engaged, and that our so-called group was there in the pics, and i noe nuts abt it. Its like yeah, i left ite early and that they're closer after i left, and havnt got much time to meet up and that everytime they asked, i cldnt make it, or that they dint ask me at all. None came for my bbq. Sumwhat i came to realise that im no one's good fren. Its like im there and im not there. yay.

on a lighter note, i passed my iv meds, iv cannulation and venepuncture. So much things to learn, to much competency assesments to go thru. Its aint easy to be a nurse. Im like having mixed feelings. i cant wait to start officially taking up cases and responsibilities, but on the other hand, im so scared that im just not good enuf. And attending training is already so tiring, cant imagine when work starts. I wana Zzzz now. Been sleeping b4 10pm since last nite. So no life. hah. bye

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 03:30:31 GMT

buncittttttnyeeeeeeeee...aku. hahah

myjoy, mypain, mylaughters, and mytears.

nxt mornin in the car with THEM WHO ALWAYS GAVE ME WRONG DIRECTIONS!

21

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 14:55:26 GMT

Im 21 today. and and and... i felt so fucked up. Tho today my family gathered and all, i juz felt sad. hah, mebe cos i dun look forward to startin work? i shd be feelin happy siak, but i was like realli tryin. I dont know. Ydy's bbq was nt any much better. A few of my close frens dint turn up, ade sum yg dtg pon mcm attitudeeee... but its ok la cos i had my very very good frens that came. However that 3am visit frm sumone kinda caused some misunderstandin with my bf. I mean like yeah, i totally understand cos i wasnt realli comfortable with chatting with him outside while my bf is sleepin in the tent. When i came back, he was awake and he looks pissed. He said i took too long. And that most of those that came either used to like me or is still liking me. Haiiya, i duno la k. oH anyway zafir was with us, and he snored so loud. This mornin, sent the 2 guys back to Tampines, relek kejap bawah blok dorang.... and drove my way bek home. Sleepy sak drive alone with nt nuff sleep.

these few days, whenever i had those bad moments with my bf il just like tear sey. why am i sooooo weak nw. He doesnt have to scold me or scream at me, whenever i can feel that he's pissed and he wont tell me, i duno y la kan im so lemah.

tmr 1st day of work. like, whatever.

photos next time.

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 16:47:21 GMT

This is rather a feminist entry. The reason why i hate to approve friend request from ppl in dont know in frienster is because they cld really be annoying MOST of the time. When u accept that fren request, they'd wan u add them on msn. When u add them on msn, they nak step ignorant, nak step romeo, mcm they byk hansem, or byk popular. Step tanye "who's this eh?". Its realli irritating, like heck, kau yg add aku den kau nak step tak tau. And then they'd start asking you dumb questions like "tak klua" when its 1am in the morning. And when u dun answer, they'd ask again. When i simply give the cant-be-bothered "tak la", he'd say, mcm malas nak layan je? MMG aku malas nak layan pon. Nasib kau get the drift. NOT like some guys who just dont get it when ur sarcastic to them, SOME hopeless cases dont even get it when ur being direct to them.

Seriously, some guys are irritating shit. excluding my pitpit.

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 16:36:14 GMT

Can someone enlighten me, on what basis are the Wildcard contestants for SGIdol are chosen?

Some untalented/cant sing contestants (read: Norman, Siew Woon) were chosen instead of ppl like Roslan? I mean yeah iv been following, and i cant even remember how bad these two sounded cos the left very little impression. But Roslan, i say he can sing! He doesnt have good looks, so is that y he's nt in wildcards? Heran tak? Herannnnn kannnn! hah. And i missed the result show tdy, but boyyyyy im surprised Emilee got in, instead of Nurul or Meryl. Herannnn tak?? Herannnnnn kan. huhur, maybe blame me for being stingy not wanting to vote, but still, those voters ar....canoot stand siak. Vote properly la sial.

Fwahhhhhlaoo weh! YAYYYYYYYYY to ghana for bein the only African nation to suceed to the next round! I like themmm! hehe, and refree sial la tadi, Bias siak. Shd i wait to watch Aust and croatia later!? I like the sprits of the socceROOS (aust), they like nv giv up sak. Brazil vs Jap? Spore will snow if japan wins, if win pon, takleh masok next round. buang masa la tgk!

EH SIAK, my updates all abt WC sak. Kate "world cup FEVER!"

sleep or eat?

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 18:21:45 GMT

kaoooooooooooooo, im waiting for 3am match! Holland vs Argentina, but im soooooooooooo hungry siak! ANgry tau. Wana call mac, but i have no cash, den everyone in the hse sleep ordy!

maybe i shd jus go to bed now and leave eating to tomorrow. But wasted la, lagi half an hr jeeeeeeeeeeer!

graduation!

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 06:11:36 GMT

So it was graduation yesterday. Other than the stupid dance they put up and the dumb rehersal of the recital of pledge, eveything else was fine. The short clip of our timeline, was kinda touching. Me and Azzah was like gona cry. Too bad, the clip was too short. Haha, baru je nak cry, den finish already. DUMB siak.
aku nak step smart-ass la wear specs!

ps: syasya sorry tak tunggu kau, had to went off with my parents! :)

glad i took this pic with syasya. DInt see her after the ceremony at all. And well, this is Azzah.

post-ceremony!

like mummy, like daddy.

OOOOOOOOOOOOO, i likeeee this last pic! haha.. and i loveeeee theseee peeps, inc syasya toooooO!

From (L) to (R): my treasurerrrrrrr MISS CHAN leong kwai! And a class (well nt all) pic as well!

3 yrs came, and 3 yrs went, just like that. I wished, i hope we will all still be the great frens that we're nw in yrs to come. I cant afford another hi-bye kinda groups of frens! You've all been great palsssss..!